Poem from the heart
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Had you ever felt,
Like the world stops,
When he looks at you,
Because everytime he does,
I do.
I StiLL TrY
Sometimes,
Even if we knew that giving up is just another wrong choice,
We fall anyways,
Because we're just too tired of everything,
Tired of holding,
Tired of giving,
Tired of breathing,
And tbh,
We're just too tired of being
fake happy.
Open Up
He told me
its okay,
He told me
be strong,
He told me
everything will be alright,
But God I could tell he's the one hurting.
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Piano
Fingers pressing wrong buttons,
Singing a few songs,
Stumbling a few words,
How I wish I was somewhere else,
Far away from all the chaos,
Just peace,
Me, myself and not you.
Fingers pressing wrong buttons,
Singing a few songs,
Stumbling a few words,
How I wish I was somewhere else,
Far away from all the chaos,
Just peace,
Me, myself and not you.
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Suicide Letter 1.0
I wonder why,
The earth from every corner seems dark,
The only thing that’s helping is the brightness from the night streets,
Seeing cars speeding through it,
Makes me wanna surprise the driver when I appear out of nowhere,
Shall I? Or shall I not?
Fall from the highest cliff,
Cut wrists using the sharpest diamond,
Swallow sleep-til-forever pills?
Or to just simply drown my entire soul?
Why?...
Am I only good at writing death notes?
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Copy - machine
“Do you love him?”
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Don’t tell me you’re in love with him,
Please...
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“I’m sorry, I do. He tells me he loves me every day and night. He keeps me warm. He stays every nightmare of mine. He makes me feel as if the world was created for me and him. Only us. Special.” she told me.
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I smiled. Only faking as I swift away. Hurting. Breaking. Not having the heart to tell the other girl how her ‘special’ was duplicated from mine.
Forget
Memories from where it all started,
Trying to feel how it actually felt,
Failed,
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I can't remember how fluttery it was whenever you say I love you,
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I can't remember the days where you told me about your dream about us,
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Amnesia.
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Heart of A Daughter
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Mr and Mrs,
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She had always wanted to make you proud,
Proud of what she does,
Proud of what she’d become,
Proud of anything and everything,
But you were so hard on her,
And still,
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So I watched her cry
every night
every day,
Mapping the pillows
you both bought.
Behind
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Once you were my fighter,
Standing beside me,
Catching every fall,
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Unknowingly,
You became my enemy.
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Answers
If I don’t love you anymore,
Why does my heart breaks every effing time you’re around,
If I don’t love you anymore,
Why does my brain won’t stop thinking of what you’re doing,
If I don’t love you anymore,
Why is my heart aching for your presence.
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I see
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Seeing you trying out hard to get
what they want,
what they need,
You,
I can see what you’re craving,
Attentions,
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But you don’t tell,
Instead,
You act.
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Regain
To let lose,
From love,
From desperation
From doubts,
From dramas,
From sadness,
From sorrow,
From tears,
From lies,
From promises,
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And,
From you.
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(S)incere
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I had never felt sincere loving someone,
Because I had always thought that nobody really stays,
Even if you beg them to,
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Til he came into my life,
Unintentionally,
He became something so important,
Like how flowers held onto water to live,
Like the rainbow needing 7 colors to appear,
And how my day only lights up when I get a text from you.
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I guess that maybe,
Just maybe,
This,
is how loving someone sincerely feels like,
And I've finally found it in me when I'm with you.